Lately, I’ve been struggling with finding a moment for myself or being able to just do things that I would like to do. For at least 9 hours per day I’m in work mode. When I’m home, I’m in future wife mode. I have to be sure that I’m checking in on him, making sure that he is ok and by the time I’m done with all that I’ve barely had the time to do anything non-essential for myself let alone my business.
Today, I made up in my mind that I would set aside a time to do this for myself. Sadly, I couldn’t even come up with anything I wanted to do. It is in the high teens and nothing sounded even remotely appealing to do besides come home, wrap up in a warm blanket and wait for Scandal & How to Get Away with Murder. But, alas I took a trip to Trader Joes and purchased myself some flowers and a few meatless meals (one of my 101 things in 1001 days is to go meatless for a week). I even got some shampoo I had been thinking of trying after my new meds had affected my hair growth. I’m not where I want to be with taking care of self, but I’m also not where I was.